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C'est la vie--生活的每一天

Life sucks, but you're gonna love it.你无法决定生命的长度,但你可以掌握生活的宽度;你无法改变容貌,但你可以展现笑容;你无法控制他人,但你可以改变自己;你无法预知明天,但你可以把握今天;你无法样样顺心,但你可以事事尽心!
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5月11日

Afterthought of Nan King, Nan King/ The City of Life and Death

Last Friday, at my papi’s request, I took him to cinema to experience “Nan King, Nan King (its English translation is “The City of Life and Death”)”, which I will name NK in short. 

           

The film is roughly dealing with two heated topics, massacre and rape, or comfort women.

NK first struck me by filming in black and white, making it more life-like or documentary-like, every emotion and expression not being skipped. Thanks to the black and white, it made the bloodshed scenes less scary, but more distressed. The fear to be killed in the eyes of the kmt soldiers, the determination to fight back, shooting aimlessly at the innocent civilians, burying residents alive, the floating cops, the kindness to help your fellows survive, the sinister smirk of nasty Japanese killers, the gun shot on and off, all of these made my heart hammer and almost get my heart attack.

When seeing defeated soldiers enclosed in the confined space, I saw some of the surrendered soldiers trying to flee and not ready to combat before, who ended in the same fate by shooting rampage. I wondered, at that moment that, if you defended the city before, at least you died for honor not cowardliness. Even though you shouted long live china, did it help? Shame on you!

If the killing makes NK unbearable, seeing the comfort women suffer the sexual violence is excruciating. As a young and educated lady, I feel really indignant to see the ignorant women play the mahjong, who did not know the imminent dangers were edging or perils were already waiting for you, which reminds me of the stanza in poem “A Mooring On The Qin Huai River (夜泊秦淮)”, “Where girls, with no thought of a perished kingdom, Gaily echo A Song of Courtyard Flowers (商女不知亡国恨,隔江犹唱后庭花)”. I don’t know whether the director feels pitiful for or somewhat looks down upon them in this scene. I feel shameful for them. When they suffered the rape or other sexual abuses, I hyperventilated, and at the very moment, I feel discreditable for those who like watching Japanese porn. I just saw the animal instincts of men, especially the perverts. I feel terrible when I still see some women still have no idea what education means to them, who just simply want to get married to a rich man.

Before going, I was reminded that the movie would upset you from the beginning till the end, no time to give you any second to breathe. Remember to bring tissues. When seeing it, an ocean of grief washed me over and over again, even drowned me there.

NK is worth seeing to some extent, but I kept counting the time down because it is horrifying and I did not know what to expect, for the event to come will be far worse.

Can this be forgiven and forgotten? Can we do what the Jesus did to Judas? I guess it is very complicated. Perhaps they can be forgiven, but we will never forget what you did to us.


Defects or spoilers

There are some defects, in my point of view, in NK. I bet that there is no teachers in the movie, for the Chinese explanatory (in the not obvious left side and it is exactly the unclear and not bold characters) of the English backdrop information is not crystally clear to me due to my poor eyesight and my seat in the far back of the hall. I guess I will cover certain part of the movie again to get the full idea. As an English major, it is not easy to read fast through the letters, too short for me to figure out the words.

The character, the Japanese soldier, I don’t know how to say his name, who I like to call j. I know he is an artistic creation in order to reason those conservative Japanese politicians or fooled public. However, he does not look real or practical to me. I don’t even believe there was a single guy feeling this way. In NK, at the last few minutes, he let go of the child and the man. Then he shot himself, and the moment, the two free men felt shocked and looked for bullet holes in themselves. Of course, they are perfectly safe and the child, for the first time, laughed a laugh from the bottom of his heart, which I think the director intentionally tries to give us hope. Well… is it too unnatural to invent this scene? to me, it seems that the japanese guy gave them freedom, not ally or fellow chinese.

 
at least, Lu Chuan captures the essence of making people buy the tickets to the film for historical reasons and curiosity for how the story goes, not because it's very terrific and thought- provoking .

 

4月22日

(转)There is a pleasure in the pathless woods--Lord Byron

There is a pleasure in the pathless woods,
There is a rapture on the lonely shore,
There is society, where none intrudes,
By the deep sea, and music in its roar:
I love not man the less, but Nature more,
From these our interviews, in which I steal
From all I may be, or have been before,
To mingle with the Universe, and feel
What I can ne'er express, yet cannot all conceal.
 
From "Child Harold's Pilgrimage",  canto iv, verse 178,
by Lord Byron, (1788-1824)
 
拜伦的诗写得-怎么说呢-“举重若轻”。他好比百步穿扬的箭手,取箭瞄准射出-每一步都轻松。可以说,好诗往往流畅。
 
读了几遍之后产生幻觉,字里行间有树林静立,海浪呼啸。
 
时常觉得韵诗与自由诗之间,我与自由体诗相近相通。可是我喜欢雪莱拜伦等人的韵体诗,怎么读来毫无所谓名著大家的晦涩呢?不仅如此,给人印象深的还有他们诗句的灵动。庞德有句话可以用来形容他们的诗:Every word is smooth and well chosen.
 
承认天分吧!还有他们熟知古典厚积薄发之能。
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这首诗的结构为:Spenserian stanza. 译为
斯宾塞诗体。每段共九行;
前八行用五音步的抑扬格(音节一轻一重为一个音步,先轻后重为抑扬〕;
第九行用六音步抑扬格;
(每行结尾的)脚韵为:abab bcbc c;
 
斯宾塞诗体/诗节由 Edmund Spenser写长诗“仙后”时创造,对英国诗影响很大。在他之前诗歌方面只有以乔叟(1340—1400)为代表的双韵体诗。和中国文学相比,英国文学起步很晚,但是在这近七百年间发展得汹涌澎湃。
 
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由拜伦“无路的森林里有一种愉悦”联想起王维,也是一例to mingle with the universe:
   独坐幽篁里,弹琴复长啸。
   林深人不知,明月来相照。
竹林静,琴声鸣。“长啸”二字何等质朴和抒发!There IS a pleasure deep in the bamboo forest.
"林深人不知"几乎可以用拜伦的句子来翻译- There is society, where none intrudes.
 
I love not man the less, but Nature more. 世上所有优秀的诗人-管它是谁-都溶于自然。
4月21日

why edward is the perfect guy for girls?

recently, i have been reading twilight sagas. i am really falling for edward cullen. now i am about to tell you what makes him a perfect guy.
 
1. being overtly attractive
  he is portrayed like a seraph and he is muscular in a medium way. every girl wants his man to be that beautiful and handsome. in some way, he is hot, gorgeous and stunning.
 
 
 
2. being around you anytime you want
girls like me don't fall for a man just whose appearance is perfect. we have to consider a lot besides that.  we can see edward is always being around bella every night to watch over her. but it is just reminded me a scene in friends that guys need some private space while sleeping. they fake they like to hug girls to sleep. edward is taking an upper hand here in this way, who is very happy to, hugging her and being around her. i know it is hard to do so in the real world. we girls still want you guys to be with us in need.
 
3. never taking eyes off bella
this is the most fight-triggering issue. guys like peeking some other hotties. in the eyes of edward, bella is the one and he spare no time to check on other hotties.
 
4. never compelling you to have physically involved behaviors even bella asks for it
he is a man with great self-control when his love was pleading for that behaviour. what a traditional man!it is hard for guys to do so right now, which is another daydream. sometimes, guys really need self-discipline.
 
5. he can accept that bella's confusion about who she loves more and he can accept the failure and give his blessing.
he knew that bella also are in love with her best jake and he never minds that for he understands how that comes into being. he gives some time for bella to consider what is best for her though he knows that jake trick her into kissing him. he understands the wound  he caused to bella is unforgivable when he left for what is best for bella. it is ok for him to accept the fact bella doesnot love him more. what a decent man!
 
6. always being gentle and playful and somehow overprotected.
he always knows how to alleviate the pain and trouble bella seeks by herself and comfort her. perhaps bella is not an independent girl. actually she is. she never wants edward to buy her luxuries. however she is a klutz and she always slips up. edward is just doing his job to remedy that.
 
7. a good kisser
 
8. his love is more and deeper than we can imagine
 
just as i have mentioned that this is romance. it is not easy for guys to act like him. i just want you to know what girls want. you guys may ask, "are you that good for me to treat you like that?" well,i don't think you have found your true love if you say so. love is a mutual way, not one way street.
 
9. never do anything that hurt his love
when bella is pregnant, and the baby hurt her so much, he blamed himself for all of these and suffered. though bella was willing to deliver a baby of their own, he still took all the responsibilities. even after bella converted to a vampire, when facing the approaching of voultri and needing to teach bella some fighting techniques, he never tried once to help her in that way for he is afraid she may get hurt because of him.
 
10. he is an excellent man in many ways
he is a top student, fluent in almost every language and good at almost everything. he has reason.
 
a perfect man is hard to find in the real world. we don't just love a man only because he is hot or something like that. here i stresse there are a lot more than just being hot. you handsome face will age with time though you may have aid of technology, and you still can not deny and avoid this natural course.
 
 
 
 
 
 
4月20日

reopen the livespace here

Divorced, beheaded, died; Divorced beheaded survived.
 
 
today, i watched some documentaries about Henry viii and his wives.
what i got is male heir.
this was always bothering the tudor king. he should have an heir.
he married the women and took them as royal baby machines.
i can't believe this idea still plagues nowadays in many places, not to mention china.
 
can't believe that child birth hurt so much and it is not easy for a baby to survive in 1500s even though you were in crown. you still could not keep your baby healthy and sound.
 
i'd like to end this with a quotation from bible :"And if a man shall take his brother's wife, it is an unclean thing: he hath uncovered his brother's nakedness; they shall be childless."
 
poor woman. poor catherine.
let me see what happened to the Boleyn girls.
 
 
7月9日

No one to blame but myself.

I do believe I'm a good teacher for I always mean to help my students improve their English
 
However, the polularity poll in students is not so satisfying.
 
Perhaps I should blame myself. I do not understand what they want. They don't know what I have done for them or what I ask them to do are beneficial to them. No one to blame but myself.
 
Let this annoying matter go. Let it not swing in my mind. Just do what you should do as a good teacher. That's enough though the students don't understand. For I don't feel guilty and I have not done anything wrong.
 
Thanks to my Punk, the considerate student during my internship in SZFS, all these trouble will be vanished in a minute. Because of your sweet word "If you have troubles, tell me and I will make you happy. I know the studetnts in your school are not good."
 
I guess I have a blessed life since I have sweetest students.
 
 
4月18日

好天气

阳光明媚,风景如画
只可惜困在有限空间.
风雨过后,天空澄澈.
天气如此美好,做伴同游更好!
4月11日

似乎心态趋老

      昨天看到一名同事再网上听歌.温兆伦的《从未试过拥有》,脑中突然涌出陈百强的<<一生何求>>,想起小时候那段无忧无虑却孤独的日子,不明白歌词的意思,也跟着唱.
      立即从网上下载,寻思为何遗忘了这首记录我儿时回忆的歌曲.
      只记得因为当时家人上班,经常把自己锁在家里,宣传着不要随便外出,很容易被拐卖.
      年少的我渴望自由,只能一天开着电视,透过25寸的视窗看世界.
      好在当年的电视节目没有如此不堪入目,都是一些(现在看来)经典歌曲的播放,益智节目.
      邓丽君,张国荣,陈百强等.
      怀念以前的旋律简单,歌词写得有简单而深刻,诗意洋溢.
      想起现在的歌曲,包装,华丽的外表却空无一物,旋律靠编曲的耍花腔.
      也许反应一代人的面貌吧
      70年代末八十年代那种宁静致远,淡泊的向往都被喧嚣嘈杂的物欲横流的现代生活冲洗得无影无踪.
      当我放起这首歌,一些年纪稍长的同事说,你这么小听这样的歌曲.老啦!
      对我来说,只能说明DANNY的歌曲引起共鸣,一代人,两代人.
      也许过一段时间,我会明白瓦尔登湖的意境.
3月29日

脑海的音乐

在脑海放空时候,会浮现什么音乐呢?
昨天在家陪妈妈,不知道怎么回事。脑海中老出现“爱的代价”
小时候很喜欢的歌曲,也是那个年代独有的特色歌曲
即使经典翻唱都无法代替其地位
老了吧?
3月17日

公共浴室洗澡

       平生从来就没有在有极度危险的情况下沐浴.沐浴本来就是很舒服的事情,但我昨晚却是如临大敌.兵临城下.

                                                           

       游泳池的浴室也是男女分开的.北方的公共浴场也是.
       但是在学校的宿舍,虽然独立的洗澡空间,有小门关着,但外面仍有大门,无人看守,随时有可能有异性闯进来,在里面洗澡总是胆战心惊.虽然不是很容易看到春光乍泻的场面,心里总不好受.
       好在昨晚还有一同事陪伴,否则我真的是没有胆量在那里洗澡.
      
3月10日

哈哈^_^

          隔壁班一学生问:"老师,你那里还有没有巧克力?"
          我对曰:"很可惜,没有了."
          他:"哦,老师,不要吃这么多巧克力啊!会长豆豆的,还有夏天穿裙子不漂亮的.小腿很粗的!"
          我:"........."
         
          看来容颜已逝,要学生来提醒了!
 
          一有经验的班主任说,这么年轻干什么穿得如此老气?身材......,可以穿得漂亮一点.
          我对曰:"我太年轻,不穿老一点,学生欺负."
          她:"他们都了解你了,没有必要了."
          我:"也对,除去伪装,要年轻漂亮时尚!"
 
          可惜,一些短裙还是不能穿到课堂来,太暴露了!谁叫我是老师?!
 
 
 
 
3月8日

节日快乐!!!

向全世界的同胞们问好!
        想起以前的日子,想到我们班上唯二的男生给我们每位女生都送花或吃的!给每位女老师送礼物.所谓物轻情意重.到处都是女生节的气氛!
        我第一个新鲜人的节日就这样在忙忙碌碌,不知道在忙什么中就过去了,一点表示也没有.
        不过也有家长发短信致意,太谢谢他们了.
         既然如此郁闷,就来点好玩的
女人八想:
一想上网免费 、
二想年轻十岁 、
三想上班不累 、
四想帅哥排队 、
五想无所不会 、
六想海吃不肥 、
七想衣服不贵 ,
 
    八想红杏出墙无罪 ,
3月7日

物质……

         有人说,sz的女孩子物质。说物质并无贬低之义。还拿我作为例子。
         爱到HK shopping,到GZ淘碟。
         我纳闷了。到HK shopping这不就说明国家还没有满足人们日益增长物质文化需求。到HK shopping并不是都是买衣服,还有很多书籍是这里根本没有的。而且都是原版的。要知道经济学家张五常的著作在大陆因言论不符这里的需要,被胡乱改写,不能说翻译了。我觉得这对人智慧成果的不尊重。书确实是物质,但很快就会转化为精神财富。
         我爱淘碟,我承认。不懂得音乐的人,我不想与之讨论。西方古典音乐是我的收藏之一,还有很多音乐也是我所爱的。音乐,不是一听了之,而是隽永的。我要的是从其中找从现实中无法找到的东西。我会听着歌曲流眼泪,我还记得我听柴可夫斯基的《如歌的行板》落泪的情形。你会从肖邦的小狗圆舞曲中看到小狗跑着跑着,胖胖的pp上的尾巴摆阿摆。会心一笑。我的欣赏水平不高,请尊重我淘碟的爱好。
         真想找个能和我聊这个聊一天的人,即使不是伴侣,也是志同道合。
         以后有机会给自己写自我介绍,物质女子一名,爱到HK买书,爱到gz淘碟。没有精神上的东西。

        

冷了......

        天气凉了...其实对我来说是冷了.
        这就是所谓的春寒料峭吧?这么冷的天气,当然想好好缩在被窝里,可惜没有人可以替我暖暖被子,只有热水袋。
        狂风吹拂着脸庞,吹乱了发丝,宛如电影中女大魔头。
        想起大学时,这样的天气会没有热水洗澡,连开水房都没有热睡打。
        晚上睡觉那丝丝寒风会从门窗的风钻进来......
3月2日

春意盎然,我的心不在此

        春天,到处充满生机,在我生活的城市,春天,树上的叶子凋零了,满地都是。紫荆花的花瓣铺在路上,仿佛置身于仙境。我怀念以前骑自行车上学的日子,柔风吹拂我的脸,如此的惬意。
       同时,天气却是潮潮的,闷闷的。
        春天,是动物同胞们的大好日子,,人也不例外。请别误会。我的心不在于此。
        我的心飘回了大学的校园,虽然那里的回忆对我来说其实是痛苦的,有了大仙,瞎子,大楠,cancan.......我的痛苦也因为你们而减轻。
         想到我们的“神棍们”,想起此起彼伏的睡眠交响“二重奏”,“睡眠情歌对唱”,想起和大楠,妍年年都在自己的生日庆祝,新年去打火锅,一起看电影,睡前女性论坛,cancan的很多笑话。。。。。。。
         想起Helen Keller的《假如给我三天光明》,我也希望《假如给我一天美好》
         就这样,在一刻千金的“春宵”,我失眠了......
          
         
2月28日

红衣女子

        昨天身穿红夹克,十分随意的打扮。
        怎么知道,一进门,学生就说:“好红哦!”
        更有甚者,“百年好合”
        虽然,我也想能百年好合,但是我更想收多几年红包
        红衣女子在此拜年了!
        也奇怪,为什么会这样呢?红衣服难道就没有没有含义的时候?就是一种颜色,不代表附加意义。
 
P.S.我本想Post一张本人红衣着装的照片,但是本人太有辱市容,还是就此作罢了。
2月27日

开工了!

开工了!
想不到一开工还有开门红,有领导派红包了!听闻这里可没有这个习惯的。
哈哈!Unbelievable!
祝大家开工好运!
2月24日

如斯男友

 

如斯男友
 
 
 
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Forever young

     这些天放了年少轻狂时所钟爱的歌曲,大声哼唱,好在没有人投诉  
     其实当年爱的歌曲一点也不吵闹, 也许老了,当然也有吵闹的,但决不是heavy metal。
     The Corrs,               Travis,           Eels,         Love Diary 2,MLTR......
     。。。。。。
    I want the good old days back! One never gets older without a cause. Why??

女人需要松绑

      晴天霹雳?还是欢天喜地?
      突然得知陪我成长最长时间的保姆姐姐要出嫁了!
      也许你会说,应该祝福她,毕竟是喜事。请容我罗嗦流水账一下。
我的这位姐姐,心地善良,心软耳朵也软,脑子有点不太灵光,没有什么主意(抱歉,我用词过重)。也许是受的教育极少,农村姑娘,家里贫困,兄弟姐妹众多,作为老大,为减轻家庭负担,到我家来工作了8年。接着在外面闯荡多年,年龄长了,见识多了,但难以逃脱传统观念的束缚,结婚生子。也许正如人所说,要在行情走俏的时候嫁出去。据她所说,她似乎没有这样的时期。
多方为她的终生大事努力,介绍多个对象,也和其中一个处了一段时间。分手原因,我姐姐人太实诚,把自己文化不高的底搬出来,对方是大专生。
     现在的未婚夫在今年元旦见过一面,然后男的不断sms联系,今年春节初五拜访,要姐姐和他拿了结婚证才能出去工作。姐姐在没有有主见的妹妹在身边作参谋,在父亲死缠软磨,终于达到目的,如同卖女儿般的收取了几千块礼金,初九领证。
      姐姐和我親如姐妹,有什麽事情,有什么情感问题,只要我问她都会如实告诉我。春节前都和我说过先了解半年再说。怎么知道现在变成这样。

       希望我的乌鸦嘴不要说中!我潜意识的感到这个男的有问题。很多时候都是女的怕男的把自己甩了。我怕此人有什么不可告人的秘密或者恶习。爸爸说,农村30岁还没有结婚的男子确实少,27,28就有。上天保佑姐姐!!

      还是那种根深蒂固的传统观念残害女性!女性必须得到良好的教育,一定要有自己的主见!婚姻生活不见得对每一个人都是好的,不见得单身日子都有害。难道女性一定在27岁前,也就是所谓行情走俏时把自己卖出去?不能在流通市场里了?在这个还是男权为主导的社会里,女性的地位我真的不见长!陪酒等一些都是给女性的…

     女性真的要在思想上松绑!否则即使你表面似乎很自由,但是实际上和这狗狗没有区别,还是被牵制着。                                                    

                                                

2月23日

假若生命只剩下最后两小时

        我昨晚听一个电台节目,当晚的假设性问题是假若生命只剩下最后两小时,你将怎样做?
        好悲伤的问题。
        我的回答极不成熟。
 
(一)假若亲情,爱情,友情都拥有
        (1)我会给我的父母,我的外祖父祖母留下信件,向他们讲述我对他们的爱,和我对他们的亏欠
        (2)我的不多的财产,也就是书和cd送给喜爱书或音乐的朋友
        (3)在space留下一封遗书。打电话给好友,问问家常,说出我对他们的话。
        (4)把自己打扮得漂漂亮亮。和自己的爱人度过最后的时光,看看路边的紫荆花,芒果花,呼吸新鲜空气,在他怀里度过最后一刻。我不想我最后的时光在我母亲的怀里度过,因为在她怀里,她以欣喜的心情迎接我到这个世界,却忍着悲伤看着我离开这个世界,有点残忍。
 
(二)假若亲情,友情都拥有
          前三条都一样,最后一条,算准时间,听着我最爱的音乐,孤身看看路边的紫荆花,芒果花,呼吸新鲜空气,回到家中,躺在床上,放着音乐,休息,离开。
 
 
        
 
         
 

Cathy